Rebelle

I suppose it's weird that most of the news I know about comes from blogs rather than the television, radio, newspapers or media websites.
I've got entirely too much on my mind. There's been so much that's happened in the last two weeks. I've been in a constant state of flux since the x asked for a divorce, and it's been all for the better. Everything that's changed since that day has been positive, although it still tends to make my head spin how much has changed within me since all of that happened four months ago. I think alot of these things had to happen to get my head on straight, though many of the individual lessons learned were not in any way pleasant when I was going through them. I suppose that's to be expected.
Tomorrow is the decade anniversary of my stepdad's death. I don't know how to expect myself to react to this particular day. In the last ten years there's never been a single day I haven't thought about and missed this man. Yesterday was fathers day, tomorrows the ten year anniversary of his death. How is it possible it was ten years ago?
I wonder if he's proud of me, if he approves of the woman I've become. I wonder what he'd say if he was here. I miss him terribly. I hope, that with all the craziness and chaos in my life, that I have done right by him.