So, the wedding is put off until further notice. It was my call, so that, hopefully, we're in a better financial state before we make that leap. I refuse to get married because the army has me in a situation that seems to dictate that it's the right decision, when other things clearly contraindicate this. I refuse to start a new life in a hole. It's easy enough to dig when there wasn't a hole there to begin with.
No, Ryan isn't thrilled about the idea of waiting.
I won't go into it further than that.
Things here in Korea are going alright, I think they're starting to look up. I've finally got the idea as far as who really has my back and who doesn't. I'm done watching out for someone who's going to judge me. I won't put my stamp on someone like that. I've been in worse situations than I'm in now, and, truthfully, probably will be again. If someone's going to judge me over something that was a mistake, when things are this calm, I do not need them in my life. It's the people like my big brother that are going to be there for my come hell or high water, and I refuse to accept less than what I deserve. I don't judge others, I'll be damned if I let them do it to me. I've stood by too many people for too damn long to let one of these self-righteous, shallow, ignorant and egotistical mother ******* hurt me with their words. Keep talking your shit, I'll call your ass out on it. I can admit to making a mistake and not be ashamed. Your disrespect was a choice, and don't think for one second I feel like I owe you even so much as to keep your name out of it. Test me. I dare you.
Things are changing fast right now. My motivation is up, though so is my frustration at the moment, but I won't fail. If I do, I know who will be there to help me get back up. I have the greatest friend/family in the world. Things are going to get better starting now.
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