Endless Sunshine

She pissed me off.
I hate it when people cut me off.
She knocked me when I was proud of myself.
I ran the battalion run today, and did better than I ever have before on one- and had 4 hair ties break before the halfway mark.
FOUR.
I'm not really sure it would have been logical to be any more prepared than I was, but, oh well.
My 1sg got pissed that I didn't finish with the company. I made it farther, and stayed closer to the formation than I ever have before. I suck at running, I'm aware.
I made it farther and ran better than I have before- and did it with one hand holding my hair up for close to 45 minutes.
My arm was asleep, I pushed myself to nausea, and still did what I could. I also took a minor ass-chewing from HHD's 1sg without flinching.
I freaked the **** out when she snapped at me over it, when I tried to explain. I held it in, though, and sprinted back to the barracks (HHD's 1sg had given me a hairtie to use when I explained the situation and why my hair looked retarded and fell below my collar) and let it out there. I didn't freak out in front of anyone. I look up to Top, and it screwed with my head that she'd cut me off and chew my ass like that.
I refuse to let her or anyone else get to me, though.
I will smile, no matter what, and I will hold my head up because, dammit, I did better than I could have expected. If you're wondering, yes, it really is more difficult to breath with your arm(s) above your heart. I felt like I was in the very early stages of anaphylaxis- my throat and chest felt tight, and I kept pushing anyway.
It's been almost 2 weeks since I had a meltdown at work.
YOU WILL NOT TAKE THIS FROM ME!
Nobody will.
The mean people will not win.
My nickname used to be Sunshine- I'll be damned if it's going to rain on my parade.