Romeo 4 Signing In

I knew I shouldn't have let them give me the flu mist. I'm cranky and I don't feel good. I'm more or less evil when I'm sick. I think I'm going to go watch some movies with one of the guys tonight and forget about the world for a few hours. It's been a really rough week, and I don't get the four day that everyone else does, so I need to make the most of what I've got.
I had a great day, though it was largely overwhelming. The responsibilities I already had seem to be on steroids today, because, between my promotion and the new command, well, there's a lot on my plate. I got pinned with my SPC today, which I was very proud of, though I completely blanked and didn't say any of what I meant to. There were half a dozen or more field grade officers I'd never seen before there, not to mention half my battalion and several folks from brigade.
By the end of the day, I was tired and hungry and emotional from feeling sick. I was pretty embarrassed about that, but there wasn't much I could do.
I think there's going to be some feelings hurt in the not-too-distant future. There's some decisions I have to make that some people who I love very much won't be happy with. I have come to a point in my life where I'm past trying to pacify people, and need to do what works for me and what makes me happy. I don't like hurting people, but there are truly people in this world who will never be completely satisfied, and I won't strain myself emotionally or stress out trying to make them happy. If I try to compromise, well, people mistake kindness for weakness, and there's some things that are too big to allow enough room for that mistake. I've started a new chapter in my life, and everyone doesn't have to like it, because I'm happy, and each person is responsible for themselves first and foremost.
I am very much in love with Ryan. I honestly am amazed each and every day by how much he loves me, and how far he's willing to go to make me happy. He's got something pretty big up his sleeve right now, but I'm sure I'll be letting you all know what the deal is whenever I find out from him- or my 1sg- whichever comes first. Yeah, it's that serious. The soon-to-be father in law is egging that one on, too. Thanks, ole man, thanks. Anyway, I'm going to go relax and try to forget an email I got today.