Aging Disgracefully

I feel old, unattractive, and rather angry just now.
I'm sick, it's cold, and I have too much to do.
On top of that, I spend all my time worrying about this that and the other. Or someone else. Or trying not to think about someone else. Or any number of other things I really don't want to have to think about.
I turn 24 in a couple weeks here, and I can't figure out for the life of me how I got old in so few years. I remember wanting to be like the 24 year olds I knew. Now, I just want to feel 24, instead of 84.
Relationship issues, trying to work that out... N0 matter how in love you are with someone, relationships can really suck the energy out of you sometimes.
Work, work, work, work WORK. Study for the board, correspondence courses, study for EFMB, get civilian ed...
Save money.
Go to the gym, to work out, so you can get that 300 on the PT test and get more promotion points.

It's not like I don't get looked at. I get attention for my looks, okay, whatever. Knowing someone's looking at me and feeling attractive.... so not the same thing.

I don't know why it hit so hard today, but I just really don't care right now.
No, I REALLY don't care.

Maybe not giving a rats ass for a bit is what I need, I don't know.
I just don't have the energy to be dealing with crap right now.