Determination

I'm hard headed.
Does this surprise anyone?
I've been stubborn as they come since conception, and this probably will not change any time soon.
I'm giving him the chance he's asking for, the chance he's doing everything in his powers to earn. I'm proud of him, honestly. He is showing, more than anyone ever has, that he realizes what I'm worth. The part I didn't see coming was how hard it would be to let it go, and how difficult it would be to accept someone I'd convinced myself could never be the right one. Am I still seeing that there's a definite risk involved? Absolutely. Is he doing everything in his powers to minimize that risk? Without a doubt. No relationship comes without risk. Some come with more than others. I've never struggled this much to overcome fear in a relationship. I've never worked this hard to keep someone, or to let them keep me.
He reminds me to pray, reminds me that he cares about me and doesn't want anyone else, and his goals and plans are compatible with what I want in life. There's plenty of obstacles, but I've got to try. I've never pushed this hard, and no one's ever pushed back the way he has. I said 'Leave me alone' he said 'Not until you tell me you don't want me anymore.'
I may be difficult, but I'm not blind.
"Love is pushed, but never pushed away." -Chaplain Brown
It will be a while before I put this relationship in the spotlight. There's no need to add stress to a new relationship. Just know that I am taken, and I am happy.