My Family And Being A Lady

I heard something recently, about people learning to accept peace into their lives.
That's where I'm at now. I'm LEARNING to allow peace into my life.
Things have been so chaotic and busy and so many other things, I really didn't have a place in my life for peace or calm, I snatched a few personal minutes of it where I could, and kept moving. Now that things are starting to calm down, now that I'm really getting a grip on my world, I'm having to learn to let things be calm, and to trust that they can be. My family here, my brothers, they're absolutely instrumental in all of this. I love these guys, and I can't imagine having come through all this so well without them.
I am also, though not too gracefully, learning to, well, be a damn lady.
I'm not saying I've been a whore or brute or anything like that. I'm just in a place in my life where I am beginning to see the value and reason of the quiet strength I've admired in many women, despite my previous lack of understanding as to why they would choose this path. I will be 24 years old in January, and am blown away looking at my past at all that has changed. I'm nothing like the woman I was even a year ago. I've grown and changed in ways I never could have understood or imagined. I'm proud of myself and how far I've come, and am honestly looking forward to the future.
I see these women that I have admired so much for so much of my life, and realize now that there are, in fact, as much as I hate to admit it, some situations it is better to accept that quiet, graceful strength, to not kick down the doors because you can, and to work a little less loudly to make the changes you know you can.
It's a process, but I'm getting there.