The Ghost Of Turkeys Past

It's Thanksgiving Day here in the Republic Of Korea.
I'm feeling a little under the weather, presumably from being stretched thin these last few weeks. It truly feels like I've been a month without a day off. I can't say I'm burnt out- I've been burnt out before, this is not the same thing. This is just really tired, and trying to heal. The anxiety I've been struggling with for so long seems to have surfaced all at once. I've spent years trying to heal and control it, and now, just as it felt as though it had gotten so much better, the remains of it seem to have floated to the top and be there for everyone to see.
When a friend reaches for something too near my head, I flinch, some part of me expecting to be struck.
I've had a couple unexpected anxiety attacks, and I still can't figure out what caused them.
I may be improving, but it's a hard path to healed.