Every new beginning is some other beginning's end....
Closing Time. I haven't heard that song in quite a while.
Some things changed for me last night. It started with my heart breaking, and, well, the realizations that came with that. There's nothing I go through that I won't learn from. I have lived many lifetimes in this one, and this much I know about myself.
I learned something about trusting people last night too- turns out there are still people out there who can be trusted and taken at their word. Don't get any big ideas, I'm never going to be an inherently trusting person, but having someone there for me last night, having someone THERE FOR ME- not trying to get or gain anything from me, just there to be what I needed them to be in a dark time, that was an overwhelmingly positive experience.
My heart still aches, and I suppose it will for a time. None the less, I will not be held down or back by it. I will pray for the ability to truly forgive, and to release all the anger and pain, until that ability comes. Until then, I will remain strong as I ever was, and will lean on those who are strong enough to help me when I can't.
I'm not the same person I was even 6 months ago, and I see this reflected every day. I'm proud of who I am, and who I'm becoming. I will overcome this, just as I have overcome other trials in my life. I know in my heart of hearts that I gave this my all, in a way I have never done before. I am proud of that, even if it had to come to a rather painful end. I will not let this take away my friend, even if it took away someone I'd hoped would be much more than that.
There are worst things in this world than a broken heart- not many, but there are a few.
Supida Y Supera.
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