The Next Decade

2009 was a bust.
Too many bad/upsetting things.
I turn 24 in a couple weeks, so I have that much more of a fresh start. In July, I will be leaving Korea. I have until then to get myself where I need to be mentally, emotionally and career-wise. I am putting together my physical paperwork for Flight Medic. As of now, I want to re-enlist for either Hood or Bliss, as I really need some time at home, and try to get Flight Medic school en route. Honestly, it seems like Bliss is the best choice for me right now, to bring some closure to some of my past. It's also close enough to Hood that I can come bug my people there on a regular basis. <3
I'm not going to focus on any relationship for a while. Relationships have continually been a huge source of stress for me. When the next one comes around, I refuse to make the same mistakes I've made in the past. Sex is not even going to be an option for a very long time. I hate what sex does to relationships. I'm sure my Daddy will read this, and probably my sister too, but they're adults and they know I am too. I hope they won't cringe at the thought that I'm an adult, but rather be proud that I'm finally making better decisions for myself.
I want- no, I NEED to do more studying where my faith is concerned. I have been unable to get in contact with anyone in the area who shares my faith and, therefore, might be able to teach me more, but that's more of a reason to do studies on my own. I don't believe I will be punished for not being able to adhere to the strictest parts of my faith, but I know I need to do better with my habits, and will continue to work on that. God doesn't ask that much of me in relation to praying, etc. There's no reason I can't work a little harder at that in order to get my life more on track.
I am a lot like my Daddy, always have been. There's some things he's always struggled with, whether or not he knows I see it. I love my Daddy, and want to be like him in a lot of ways, but I've also done my best to learn from his struggles. Relationships and faith are areas I know I can take lessons from his pain, and I can only hope that I can teach my children about those things in different ways than he taught me. I want to make my children the best generation of my family yet, and I can't do that if I don't build on the foundation my parents gave me.
Being in Korea is very painful, especially right now, when everyone is celebrating holidays I don't believe in, and right after a break up. I'm learning a lot, but learning is nearly always at least somewhat painful. I miss home. This next decade needs to be better, no matter what I need to do to make that happen.
Times Magazine, incidentally, ran an article titled "The Decade From Hell And Why The Next One Will Be Better". It was nice to get some good news...