I don't want to lose what I have with him.
I can't begin to think of just walking away from this.
It hurts so much less when I don't expect someone to be there, though.
I just want him to be here tonight, I've been battling the PTSD all day, and I just don't want to be alone tonight and I have no choice. He's got more important things to do in the morning.
Am I just hurting him by keeping him around?
I certainly can't be doing him any good.
I can't even bring myself to explain it, because I might as well be forcing him into it.
No wonder I feel neglected when I keep making him do this crap.
I wish I could bring myself to walk away. No matter how much I love him or how incredible this is, it seems like I can only be hurting him, and I don't want that.
I'm so lost, and I only feel more alone knowing he's not that far away, but not here with me.
No, I don't want to sleep tonight.
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