15 Minutes

I am doing what I do best today: running this shiat.
Everyone's at training or this that or the other today, so only periodically does someone from the chain come back here. That's fine with me, I seem to be most productive when there's no one around to get in my way.
After a wild morning, more than a few 'WTF you thinking, Specialist?' looks and a few very Monday-like hours, I have put myself on a 15 minute break. I haven't blogged in... how long has it been now? I don't know, but the most recent ones certainly were not done from work. I've been very, very busy. It's great to know I'm needed, but, dang.
So, this weekend was probably one of the most tiring and negatively eventful in my time here. There were some positives, but most of it was riddled with PTSD-triggering events and struggling with myself about how to handle some things that have been bothering me. I'm doing okay today, all things considered. Every once in a while, when things start closing in on me, I have to remind myself that I'm working outside of my MOS, way above my pay grade, with very little experience on either part, and I'm really doing a pretty good job at it. There's some people who are simply asking too much of me right now, and they may or may not like how I choose to handle the things they ask of me, but I'd rather be corrected or, at worst, counseled, which seems doubtful, than start feeling my sanity slip away from me again. I'm lucky enough to have a fiance who is far, far more patient than I am, and some really great friends who have my back, even if it takes some of them some time to realize who they are and why they behave the way they do at times. I am grateful for having the kind of friend who texts me in the middle of the night when they realize I'm still awake, and invites me over so I don't have to be alone- even if we both had to be up in only a few more hours. I'm grateful for having the type of friends who, when I see them for the first time in ages at the PX, are still very kind and willing to sit there and listen to me rant about work over lunch, even though they're having a rough day, too. I'm grateful for having a fiance who wakes up when the phone ring and listens to me go off about work, about the evil soldier that came in and made a mess of my day, about the way that guy talked about me, or anything else that comes to my mind as needing to be vented about- even though he probably only really understands about 60% of what I'm upset about, anyway. I'm grateful to have a dad who loves me and tells me he's proud of me, no matter how pissy my emails to him must sound sometimes. I'm grateful to have a best friend who doesn't care that we're on opposite sides of the planet, and appreciates me even when I call her at crazy hours to freak the hell out. I'm grateful for the weird way the band Everclear always seems to put me back on an even keel when I'm having a bad day, even though I can never figure out why exactly it does.
Things aren't even close to easy right now.
This, too, shall pass, though, and I have all the means possible to rise and overcome.
What more do I need?