At Ease, You!

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I went to bed at 6 this morning, after struggling with last night's events and their implications for many hours. I also, unfortunately, missed SSG Bradley's farewell. I'm sad that I didn't remember that.
Today was very quiet. I got up late, called my fiance for a while, ate and hung out with a friend of mine. It was nice just relaxing and watching movies with someone, and being able to sit and talk to someone for hours at a time, without it getting dull or conflicting. I needed the peaceful day today, honestly.
Tomorrow is back to work, and it's a short week. It's odd, but I'm actually looking forward to being back in my clinic-mostly, I think, because it truly has become MY clinic over these last couple weeks. It is keeping me very, very busy, but I am earning my keep if ever I have, and really running the show. I am enjoying it more than I realized I would, honestly. I really enjoy being busy, and especially being in charge. There's really no one working under me right now, but I am still the one running it all.
I miss Ryan dearly, as always. I am looking forward to October when the ring he designed for me will be ready, and January when we will be getting married.
A lot of my goals have changed recently. I suppose it's the "responsible" thing to do to go M6 and green to gold, but the more I thought about it, the more Ryan and I, and Iman and I, and my daddy and I, talked about it... It's not what's going to make me happy, it really isn't. It's a great ideal, but I'm going to be miserable, at least for the next several years, so far as my career goes. I just can't be okay with that.