Love And Light And Things That Aren't Alright

I am truly blessed to have these people in my life. All my friends, my family, my fiance, these soldiers who have become my extended family, the civilians who could never be anything less to me than family... I am all too aware of how rare beautiful people like the ones I have in my life really are. I am truly honored to know each and every one of those people I am able to call friends or family.
Tonight I am hurting. My body may ache, but I do not feel it, as the hurt in my heart echoes so deeply.
I don't know who she is, or where she came from.
Her heritage was Japanese, if I am correct.
I am ashamed to say I assumed she was a juicy girl at first glance.
Maybe she is.
Maybe she was.
She wasn't sober, but more than most of me believes it had nothing to do with alcohol. I think she was on some sort of drug, though which one is anyone's guess.
X maybe?
She threw herself at anyone who would pay attention to her.
She threw herself at me.
She wasn't okay, but I didn't stop anything. I don't know what was going on, or who she knew, or where she was from or who she was with, or if she was alone.
I say was, because if I ever see this girl alive again, I have a feeling it may be due to an interaction of God.
She left with a Korean male, after leaving twice with others, but not making it to the street before coming back.
She wasn't okay.
She nearly passed out.


He was with our group.
He's a G.I.
He lives in my building.
He said he wouldn't care if she was passed out, he'd do the same.
He wasn't with her. He didn't do it. Maybe he was bluffing.
...But he admitted he'd rape her.


This girl could have been anyone's mom or sister, friend, cousin, daughter, battle buddy....
And there was nothing I could do to stop this, or find out what was going on.
Someone I've seen almost daily for months said it didn't matter to him if a girl was passed out or not.
Who says these things?
Who thinks these things?
I've been through too much to just let it go.
It took a lot of self control not to turn on him completely when he said it.
Some part of me knows that, the first chance I get, I will speak to him about this.
Even if he doesn't want to hear what I have to say.
Someone needs to.

I can only pray that the anger and hurt in my heart subsides.
And pray that this young woman sees daylight without any harm having been brought to her.