Angry All The Time

I'm angry today.
I don't know why, but it's pretty thorough.
I had, well, can't call it a nightmare, exactly, but a very violent dream last night. I think I understand what it means, but I can't quite figure out where it's coming from. It's a frustrating feeling.
I've decided that, since there's very little I can do to improve parts of my life and situation that I wanted to change and take care of before I moved forward with promotions and such, that I am going to volunteer for WLC and, after the Soldier Of The Quarter board next month, the promotion board. I'm still struggling with some things, but that's simply part of the human condition, and it will have to do. I refuse to stay stuck where I am. "I've come too far to stay where I belong." -from the movie Fracture
Where the other gender is concerned... well, frankly, I'm tired of getting my hopes up. I need to decide what it is I want and stick with it. If I can't do that, though, I won't try to make something work that isn't, at it's foundation, what I feel is right for me. I'll be at Bliss in July, and there's no telling what Bliss has in store for me. It's time to move on.
I'm not making the choices I always wanted to, so maybe I'm still in the wrong, but right now... I'm taking care of myself. I'm relaxing, and I'm focusing. I'm not going to keep beating myself up over not being the person I've been trying to be over night. It's a process. I'm getting there, even if it's happening slowly.
I don't know what everything means right now, or what the right choice to make about many of the things going on in my life is, but I'm here, I'm trying, and I refuse to back down.