Rising From The Ashes

"A revolution never comes with a warning, A revolution never sends you an omen, A revolution just came like the morning, Ring the alarm- we here to wake up the snoring." -Michael Franti & Spearhead, Yell Fire

I'm starting over.
I've done this many, many times.
This time, though, it just has to stick.
I met a great guy Valentine's Day. I made a bad choice, though, and went against my own beliefs. Whether or not fixing this will end whatever there is between him and I, well, it just can't matter to me at this point. My brother didn't have to say much when I talked to him about it, we both knew I'd screwed up. I haven't been the person I want to be. I am better than I've been treating myself and letting others treat me. I can do better than this. I have to. I am not happy this way.

Everything has to change, all at once, or it simply will not change at all. I've tried small changes, tweaks and improvements.
So long as I do what I have always done, I will have what I've always had.
What I've always had is not enough.
Burn this life right to the ground, we're starting again.
...And the phoenix will rise again, from the ashes of her old life.
Gypsies make their own luck- I won't wait for my life to fix itself.