Where Were You?

I'm real glad the Saints won the Superbowl. The Cowboys might not have gotten there, but my Southern folk still representing right!
I can't stand the Colts or Peyton Manning.

It's funny, I had my meltdown a few days ago now, and I'm really looking at who was there for me and who wasn't. Some of the people I really expected to be there, people I specifically reached out to- weren't there. It really was that simple. I got blown off, or they simply couldn't handle me when I'm upset. In retrospect, I don't have the first clue why it surprises me as much as it does. Smiley sure as hell couldn't hang- Lord knows I tried to explain it to him, but he's too young. He made some snide comment about me boosting my own ego by saying he was young- I don't give a rat's behind about my own ego, not that it couldn't use a boost, but that boost has never come from being cocky. He just doesn't have the experience to handle someone like me, and that's fine, I'm just glad I realized it before I invested more into it, though it hurt regardless. Brother Man was too wrapped up in his own feelings to be there for me, which, seeing how thick his tough shell is, I never saw coming. I guess something I said hit too close to home, though I honestly can't remember what I said, only that he pretty much stopped talking to me before things even really heated up for me. Slim... I don't know. I guess I should just write him off at this point. Or maybe I'm just really not ready for a relationship. Does it matter?
Bones is back on the scene, and I'm really liking having him around. He's a good guy, doesn't have to try for something, and he's just fun to be around, especially when he's willing to be goofy. He can be real funny when he lets his guard down just a little bit. We had a pretty outstanding... I guess it really was a date, wow... last night, and I'm really glad I went out, even if I didn't see most of it coming. I had a really good time, and he's going out of his way to take care of me and make me feel special, which is hard to find these days. I really like this guy.
I'm not pushing for a relationship right now, though, I'm better off alone. It's nice to have people in my life, but I'm just not trying to focus that much attention on something that likely won't last a month anyway.
I'm tired.
I'm heading up to Yongsan today, to spend some time on my own, n maybe see my boy Lil Hawaii. I haven't seen him in a while, and I think he needs someone to talk to as much as I do right now.